She likes to run.
Now I can't blame her for running away from problems as I did the same thing when I was young.
you were running away
because you thought you would die.
True.
Arwen runs when the situation is so strongly against her liking that she feels the need to get as far from it as possible. She ran away from home after convincing herself that all adults were evil murderous liars.
then came back.
She was kidnapped and ran away from her birth father...but noticeably stayed away from home for some time.
then came back...
Recently she sent some ridiculous texts which lead me to believe she was either drunk of high. I found her in the park fighting with Claire, Mitka's daughter. She seemed to not care than she and Claire reeked of weed and instead walked out on the conversation like I had done something wrong as the parent for talking to her. She even had to audacity to claim that Adagio and I were never there for her, and that she'd be better off living alone.
That night, she seemed to have come home, packed some things including the medical kit I bought, and left notes saying she would be away while. I come to find out at a party no less that she and Claire are now a couple and are in the swamps somewhere. Mitka seems fine with her daughter wandering off into the wilderness, but I'm not as lenient.
Poor Arwen my ass. I'm not stressing myself any longer over a child that begs for my help then refuses it with every fiber of her being until she conveniently wants it again. She has two parents more than willing to care for her and beyond, and she's just spitting in our faces for it. Until I hear an honest fucking apology from that girl, as far as I'm concerned, I don't know anyone named Arwen.
so what will you do?
she did call to apologize.
She called to say she was sorry for being a bitch, which is a damn poor apology. I'm not mad at her because she got fresh with me. I'm mad because she always seems to choose running for God knows how long and expects me and Adagio to wait. We have another child to watch over now as well as high ranking jobs that demand more and more of our attention. We don't have time or energy to deal with a teen on her ranting cycles.Maybe it's me with the temper flare?
Ayr pointed it out after the swamp run the other day.
It started as a trip to find medicinal mushrooms, plants, and brush to replenish the Pack's supplies. A leak had caused moisture to get into the dried plants and spoiled a lot of them. A few of us went, including Ayr and Kuro, two of whom I didn't expect. For the first hour things went well since they both went with the group hunting for fresh meat to cook. Brekka, Lunar, and I fished through dead trees for the mushrooms.
The day ended with us trying to save Ayr after he pissed off the local crocodile population. I got a sore back after the ordeal, but the pack was safe and we'd picked up a good helping of supplies and meat. The thing is Ayr's hurtful words about me apologizing for Ashagi's past damages still rung in my ears. When he confronted me, I told him and Brekka that I took and kept this job for the pack and for my family. He admitted that bringing up my employment was my Achilles heel, suggesting that something about it caused me guilt. He may have had a point, but it's the same as with Arwen - me doing something for the benefit of others and having it thrown in my face like I'd committed sin.
I'm 22. I don't need to deal with a teenage daughter. I don't need to have a stressful job such as being CEO of the branch. I could have stayed a damn nurse. I don't need to be so serious all the time.
I think this was one of the things Dr. Sautereau touched on - me enjoying my life instead of assuming it's worth nothing.
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