Dr. Parkin is being transferred to the mainland to focus primarily on her genetics work and advancements, just like Dr. Nightfire was before her in regards to her cybernetics work. I'm now the CEO for the Midian City branch, answering to the board of directors in the Japan Head office. I haven't named a manager for the facility yet.
I do question my ability to be responsible however. I can't even protect my children from being stolen from me. First it was Donatien, now I've learned Arwen's school willingly handed her over to some man claiming to be her father. They assumed he was my husband, the fools. Apparently he even looked like Arwen, which added to the farce. Arwen had mentioned her father returning ,or at least someone claiming to be him had returned and asked that she come back to the mainland with him. Why did he choose to come back now after letting the girl believe he was dead? If Arwen's condition has worsened, she probably had no idea that she wasn't supposed to leave with the man. Everything around me seems to enjoy crumbling at the exact same time.
Arwen's not the only one. Adagio's gone missing as well as Khelsea. Adagio had met with Dr. Foster of all people when he stopped by the lab asking for her. It was highly against his pride to ask another scientist for help, but then again, that man cared more about results than anything. He would not disclose the case itself but insisted on the help of our currently top mind in genetics. Since he's no longer interested in hunting me, it seemed Adagio went along with it.
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| Perhaps I should not worry as much as I have been? |
I've been questioning myself so much lately that it's becoming a habit. I wake up wondering about things that could not remain silent even in my dreams. Am I doing the right thing? Am I not? Should I hire more people to search for my son and all these people that seem to vanish at the same time or no? My mind can't settle.
I was not the only mother in Midian looking for her young. Amiya from the League of Engineers was too. I didn't even know the reptile woman could reproduce let alone lay eggs. But eggs she did lay and they had been stolen. She blamed Ayr for the theft after someone left clues hinting at the ashclaw plant stands the Pack had out. After a street fight that ended with everyone calling a timeout to chance their breath and senses, I figured this misunderstanding was over.
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| How wrong I was. |
Amiya and her group charged the den early yesterday morning, again due to the eggs she believed had been taken. Her followers clung to this story as well, attacking our guards and demanding we step aside so they could freely check our home. The pack wasn't having that crap.
It's been a while since I've heard bullets flying so close to the den. The recent outbreak of "zombies" - or whatever those walking pieces of rotting flesh are- has been upsetting enough. Carrying more than one magazine has become a requirement for dealing with the problem, but Ayr insisted that we not irradiate them all. He was happy about this.
Once the dust settled, most of our own laid injured or burned as I was, but one pup had been lost in the battle. I felt so angry at Amiya and her group for causing the loss of life over this but it turned out the eggs were in the den. They'd been stolen by Ayr all along. I don't know what hurt more- the fact he had lied and dragged the family into this or the fact Ayr claimed no responsibility for this pup's death. If he had not taken something so precious, that girl would not be dead. In fact when I scolded him for insulting the female pup by trying to cover her body with his armor, he turned right back to me and declared I was no better.
He was trying to teach Amiya a lesson and I had the gall to act like he'd done wrong.
He was a loner, but shame on me for being missing for weeks at a time while kidnapped.
He was the family's protector, but I brought the trouble of Dr. Foster to the den's doorstep.
He saved this family and still I had never once apologized on behalf of Ashagi for the crimes of the past.
Like it was my fault.
Never mind the medical supplies I get for the Pack on my tab.
Never mind the fact I do my part to keep the Pack from ever coming on Ashagi's subject list again.
Never mind that I sacrificed so much just to get through the door of Ashagi after what had been done to me.
I was supposed to foot the blame for them and say sorry.
It was not going to happen.
I am tired of doing so much and still being told off. My family first and foremost is my son. My priority as of this moment is making sure Ashagi does not fall behind. The Pack will lick their wounds as they always have whether I am there or not. I will go on earning my living so someone can have food on the table at the end of the day.
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| Work still needs doing. |
Listen to me.
I sound so cold and uncaring. Can I even wear this badge I don so proudly on my back?
Maybe not. Ayr cursed and tossed his into the flames after he said all that stuff. I was left to tend to the bleeding, the unconscious, and my own burns. I will ask myself where my loyalty is another day. Until then, my heart and mind will remain this pitch black color, hollowed and empty. I don't need them to crack any further.
Well that took some time.
Welcome back. You look different.
I feel different.
So what should I call this voice?
Names are meaningless. I am you. I am always you.
It's been too quiet for too long
and we both need someplace to rest it all.
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