Love thy Father. Fear thy Spouse

What do you do when the person you love is the person you now fear most?

Seriously, there's no manual for that.

If you love a person, surely it means you feel safe with them...

...you can trust them, right?

I'm not even sure anymore. This relationship, be it marriage in some eyes and a union in others, is starting to stress me out. I'm not sure who it is I call my wife anymore...with all the surprises and whatnot. Normally a shock in the relationship would be cheating, wanting a divorce, committing a crime on the side - normal things!

But this is nothing close to a normal relationship. She's a telepath with good intentions or so she says. She's very confident in the World Union's government. And worse still, she's not just favoring the UAC, she's friends with them. To what extent is what I find myself asking. How close is she to the UAC for her to be so sure that I'd be safe within its totalitarian walls?

Now I'm afraid to tell her anything for fear it might reach the UAC's ears. But that's not fair. She's always kept secrets from me just as I keep secrets from her. Our work forbids such outward release of sensitive material. Even within this journal...I don't reveal much of what goes on in Ashagi or the hospital. I maintain different loyalties to a lot of conflicting organizations. This doubt stemmed from a discussion with Adagio about where to raise our boy. We agreed Midian is no place safe for a child, but the thought of raising him in a society where anything non-human, including his mothers, would be viewed as worth less than a worm - I couldn't do it.

That's when Adagio made her views of the World Union a bit more clear, and I sided with the free views of Midian City...or city state. We have a Patriarch or King now, to keep the UAC from legally taking over. He's not exactly throwing his royal weight around, but how well do I know this man that I defend?

How well do I know the Patriarch of Midian?

I've never met the guy.
Not properly until a few days later. He had gotten a eye regrown with Ashagi's help and was in need of a follow up to see if the eye surgery was a success. It was a simple thing to do, so I just went to conduct it in his office.

Ironic how this was our first time in there.

Last time we were nearby that place we got thrown off the roof.

I still get aches from that. Still, the man is no stranger to us. He's commissioned several projects from Ashagi, the most recent being a new "pet" - a blue female.

What the heck did he want her made for?

I never asked. It was Dr. Parkin's work. Nonetheless, he seemed pleased with her. He even showed her off to a friend while in the office. She certainly seemed happy in the tank too. Happy, happy happy.

Lord, I'm in a crappy mood. I should be happy for a lot of reasons, but lately I'm better at cynicism.

Oi! That's my job!

a) I lashed out at the Father, even though Adagio and I were trying to present our case of being wed in the nicest way possible.

He was being hypocritical!

He offered to bless us, to bless our same sex union, but a frickin' wedding was blasphemy?!

How can you ask God to bless two women in love, a love by the way that even he said was clear and honest, and yet act like proclaiming them married would cause the Earth to shatter?

See? Cynicism. Then there was the family meeting at the Den.

Oh, that was fun.

Rico's been gone for a long time now, and from what Syle was saying in the hospital, he'd snapped.

So obviously, ticking the man off after he'd been away would be a rather dumb thing to do.

Enter Luke!

That surprised me. I did not expect Luke to go on the verbal attack like that, primarily over the fact Rico was a Judge. I'm guessing there's more to it than that, but really, I'm starting to see why Tobias always preached unity in the den. As a pack, we are dependant on group effort to get things done. When that trust crumbles, we become lost and useless.

b) I got mad at a unconscious woman for having pregnancy complications.

That should be "c," shouldn't it?

Don't get technical with me.

I'm not the one that got mad at a knocked out preggo...

Anger management much?

Okay, this one begs explanation. Jonah, a MCMC security guard, finds a knocked out young mother in the metro. I originally assumed it was just an concussion, and was ready to dismiss her to bed rest. Then one of the assistants noticed the fetus' heart rate was fluctuating.

Guess who now has to perform emergency C- section?

I mean, I don't dislike delivering young, but the timing made it stressful. In a few hours, I was to meet with the Pack and discuss things to better update everyone. We always seem to do our own things lately and it was important in my mind that we all get together and talk. I almost wanted to ignore the entire thing and sit down, but of course that was not an option. With the help of Dr. Weymss....

we delivered a healthy if small baby boy.

Bringing new life into the world should make one happy. The mother was grateful once she came around, and all was peachy in the world.

...but I still feel uneasy. I've become jumpy since that conversation with Adagio, careful to note every person around me...every conversation I have...every scent catalogued in my mind. I've been on the mainland before; like many, I was born there. I know for a fact that the World Union's views are wide spread and excepted mostly without question.

A piece of plastic and an ID might not be enough to save us one day. Any friendly tie can turn sour, and it's usually when you need that friendship the most that it can break down. There's a lot of crime riding over my head, and an arrest for being an unaccompanied hybrid might bring those to the light. Perhaps not the work at Ashagi...but I'd been busy after I escaped the facility and I got an extended wrap sheet to prove it.

Maybe I should have told that to her. Or perhaps she knew over time. I've said time and time again that I dislike uncertainty, but when that stems from the person we are supposed to trust fully, what the hell do you do?